I should apologize. I'm really sorry for a moody post, but I have to get stuff off my chest.
To anyone I've talked to in the last few weeks who I've given the impression that i'm doing alright, I was lying. I'm really struggling to get by. I've already missed four classes this semester because I couldn't convince myself it was worth getting out of bed. One of those classes was at 1pm.
Trying to do my homework is often difficult. I have trouble concentrating and that just leads to more anxiety as i have an incomplete on an absolutely necessary class from last semester that I just can't face working on.
I spend too many nights crying myself to sleep and far too many days where I can't stand my reflection. I'm constantly exhausted physically and emotionally and I'm really starting to hate myself.
On top of it all, my parents don't accept me. My mother refuses to look into what her insurance will cover. They asked me to explain it to them and then dismissed me when I started to talk, and they sent me a fucking valentines day card that says SON in big BOLD LETTTERS AT THE VERY TOP!
I AM FUCKING PISSED!
To anyone I've talked to in the last few weeks who I've given the impression that i'm doing alright, I was lying. I'm really struggling to get by. I've already missed four classes this semester because I couldn't convince myself it was worth getting out of bed. One of those classes was at 1pm.
Trying to do my homework is often difficult. I have trouble concentrating and that just leads to more anxiety as i have an incomplete on an absolutely necessary class from last semester that I just can't face working on.
I spend too many nights crying myself to sleep and far too many days where I can't stand my reflection. I'm constantly exhausted physically and emotionally and I'm really starting to hate myself.
On top of it all, my parents don't accept me. My mother refuses to look into what her insurance will cover. They asked me to explain it to them and then dismissed me when I started to talk, and they sent me a fucking valentines day card that says SON in big BOLD LETTTERS AT THE VERY TOP!
I AM FUCKING PISSED!