How are you?

Sooooooo.... how've you been?

I realize I've been gone a long while.  I've thought about posting a few times, and I want so much to tell you all that i'm doing well.  But I'm not.  I've been going to therapy for a couple months, but my depression's just getting worse.  I'm going to talk to my therapist tomorrow about getting on antidepressants.  

I'm ashamed to admit it, but i have thought about ending things.  Not contemplation, but ideation.  I don't like it, and it's upsetting just to think about that I've thought about it.  I just get in a really dark headspace, and it's been happening more often.

Soooo yeaahhhh...

I hope you're all doing better than I am.  And thank you all for the support you've given